Emotional Breakdowns, Pasta with Cheese, and Jerilee

Its been a bit of a whirlwindy day, one that I won’t get into very much. This morning went from some relaxed plans to being an incredible headache and very very stressful with lots of running around. We hoped for a quite home day with naps all around, but instead, we were out until mid afternoon and while the kids definitely needed naps, they couldn’t have them. Rowan could, but not the big ones. So we worked through the afternoon, but I finally broke. You all know I’ve struggled here, but I haven’t had a good solid breakdown. Well, I did today. It wasn’t even too epic of a melt down, but it happened. I cried and could barely get off of the couch.

So I’m hiding out a little bit. Yes, I’m hiding from my kids. But they’re doing better. Once in a while, one of them makes their way downstairs, gives me a hug and kiss, tells me they love me, and then go back upstairs. I can tell they have strict instructions from Brady not to stay too long, which is actually nice right now. Little doses of love are welcomed.

I’m anticipating my leftover Montanas pasta for supper tonight, and then when the kids go down, Jerilee is coming for the evening, which is going to be SO great! We picked up a yummy dessert/snack this afternoon amidst our errands and panic, so that and the Bachelor should make for an enjoyable and low pressure evening.

On a really positive note, Rowan has now slept through the night twice in a row! Our current bedroom is ICY cold, and we’ve been running a space heater for our first few hours into the night to heat the place up. But the last two nights, we’ve forgotten to shut it off, and he’s slept through. So I think he’s waking up because he’s cold!! So I found him some fleecy sleepers this afternoon, and we discovered the heating vents in our room are closed. Sigh. I know, we should have checked those first. We didn’t think. We’ve had enough going on that no ones brains are working quite right around here. But hopefully we’ve set things up to keep Rowan happy and settled through his nights. How wonderful would that be? Full nights of sleep would really be perfect at this point in time. We could all benefit from a bit of rest around here.