Resisting

I will be blunt. We’re not rolling in money over here. I know we are blessed more than many people all over the world, so I am not complaining. But I’ve recently decided we need to try a little harder to save, or at least be better stewards of what we’ve been given. Especially with a second baby joining the family, we’ll need to be more budget conscious and basically, we need to be the grown ups. Hopefully I’m not the only person that has to relearn this lesson over and over again.

Now that we finally know the our baby Paddles is a girl, I am fighting myself at every turn not to shop for her. I mean, come on, its not like we’re expecting her to pop out any day now! But I have resisted the urge to buy so many adorable things for so many months, and now I just want to go snap them all up! But I have the ability to exercise self discipline and it feels like something I should do.

I will admit, I bought her first pink sleeper at Costco the other day.

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Pink owls wearing argyle sweaters!

Ok, they’re not actually wearing sweaters but I don’t care. I love them.

It would appear I am pregnant. I went into the store determined to buy only what we needed, and came out with pyjamas for someone who isn’t even born yet! I bawled as soon as I got back to the car where Brady and Dekker were waiting. Its not like Brady said anything to make me feel bad, or I really needed to feel guilty, but it seemed like as soon as I made that deal with myself, I failed. I was so angry at me, and discouraged, but decided that whats done is done, and our baby will have a very adorable pink sleeper when she’s born. No looking back.

After that whole thing, I am finding myself itching to go purchase girly things! Some thing we’ll need, and I can justify them, but buying too many clothes right now is silly. I know that. But I can’t seem to shake off my desire to buy some jeggings, or a dress. I had decided to stay home today and do nothing, but Brady accidentally locked his keys in his van, so I made a trip to Saskatoon. Every part of me wanted to SHOP! So I went back and forth and bit in my head and decided that, yes, it was ok to buy a few things already, but I would start at Value Village. That way, I’d spend less than half of what I’d spend on new things. Plus, I’m only currently looking for a few things in the 0-3 month category, and babies grow out of that stage sooo fast that the second hand stuff would likely still look awesome. So we arrived at Bradys job site at the end of the day, let him into his van, and we all hit up the newer location of Value Village.

I have had a lot of luck at this location the past few months, on cute tops, housewares, and shoes. However, their baby section sucks the bag. Badly. Boys and girls stuff is all mixed together, and after looking for less than five minutes, I was already into the 6-9 month stuff. I know Dekker grew like a weed, but if our baby girl is anything like me, she will not grow like that at all, and will likely actually be in the little clothes longer. So after not finding anything in the baby stuff or in maternity, we left empty handed.

I’m actually ok with how the day played out, to be honest. I didn’t resist the urge to shop, but it just didn’t work out today for me. *shrugs* Whatever! Her birth is still likely 3 months away, and I’m sure I’ll have a change to find some cute outfits in that timespan, especially when fall clothes start surfacing.

Lastly for today, I’ve been tossing around the idea of cloth diapering. I KNOW! I never thought I’d even go there in my head, but I have been doing a lot of research and not only is it a HUGE money saver, but I’m thinking it might not be as difficult as I thought! The only real hard part will be deciding which kinds to go with! If anyone has tips or ideas or personal experience, I’ll take it all! Please send me an email or a pm on Facebook with everything you’ve got! Much appreciated!

Sleep well, friends.