It definitely felt closer to a “normal” day over here.

I got very little done but I got to see some people I really love, and speak to some others that I also really love 💜 How fortunate am I?!

I spent time holding a baby while they napped after they fussed a lot.

I ate lunch and watched a little YouTube while holding said baby.

I got a couple of kids out of school and took them to a doctors appointment.

After a successful appointment and a prescription or two, we headed home.

I retrieved the other five kids from Rae’s care (thank you, Rae 💜) and took everyone home.

Brady came home.

I made a super casual supper and everyone ate well.

A friend popped by with treats and welcomed us to the new neighbourhood. Goodness will there ever be a muffin emoji?!

I took Dekker to youth and picked up the prescriptions.

Upon coming back home, we got kids to bed and Brady started doing some work on the kitchen. Woot!

And now, babies are starting to squawk. One of them pooped. Both are red in the cheeks. Its almost time to wrap it up over here. Soon, it’ll be true crime and treats o’clock. One of my favorite times of day.

Tomorrow will hopefully be a touch more productive. But I carry comfort in the fact that we have big productive Saturday plans as a family 💪 Tomorrow will be good too, but I have no big worries 💜 God always knows how the things will turn out, and I am finding more and more comfort in that. Thank you, Lord!

Hey guys 👋 I’m baaaaack! I could not be more grateful for how my last few days have looked. I have SO much to tell you all. So many updates to give. So much gratitude and credit to dole out. Probably even a few more tears to shed. But for right now, I’ll just say a gigantic thank you to our village.

People talk about a village as a concept. Find your village, they say. It takes a village. A village implies security. Home. Comfort. It is a notion that sounds lovely to all, but not one everyone has the pleasure of experiencing personally. In the midst of Bradys surgery, our people showed UP. We had a beautiful circle already, for which I was grateful, but I had no idea the loyalty built into our people. Our cheerleaders. Our village.

And then here comes this last weekend. The coldest weekend of the season thus far. And once again, our people SHOWED UP. Plus!!! A whole schwack of people we did not know showed up, because a friend of ours reached out to them, and because they are in each other’s village, they came into ours to help us. It was like, a village by proxy. It was absolutely heart wrenching, and a gift we NEVER would’ve expected. We had a group of maybe ten people come in to help us move, and we personally knew three of them. Three. I couldn’t even tell you all of their names. Out of the three people we knew, two are like our family, one was from work, and they came in happy and willing and loving. As did the crew of people we didn’t know!!!. It was a bizarre, beautiful, wild day of working. And if you missed it, it was cold as BALLS out there!!! No joke, I dropped a soother, and this is what happened.

It shattered. THAT is the level of cold they were dealing with. Every last one of them had smiles on their faces, reassuring us along the way that they were happy to help, one even noting “Oh I get it, it is so vulnerable letting others help you move.” I’m not sure I could’ve felt more comfortable or taken care of in the moment.

As the cold begins to let us juuuuust a little, everything feels marginally more doable. For example, going out to the garage. That feels less uncomfortable and like something I’m more willing to do. But when I consider how much work was so willingly done on our behalf this weekend by people who had no loyalty to US and didn’t have to help us, it seems silly and petty and entitled. Rather than pick these things apart, though, and rather than taking on guilt, I choose gratefulness and sheer joy.

To our village, and our village by proxy, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. We could not be here to this capacity without the help of so many willing hands on such a blisteringly cold day.

Photo dump in the days to come 💜

The new house is already home to my friends. Brady can answer his own front door, do laundry, and get food from the freezer. If he needs something from his bedroom, he won’t be tired after he retrieves it. 

It’s already a home to Hailey who can sit on the couch sipping coffee and gaze over at her yarn cabinets with the glass fronts, dreaming up projects during the day; and play with her cold room. 

The new house offers more space and room for foster babies, and play areas for the bigger kids. More tunnels, I mean closets. It has more to offer than the previous basement in terms of storage and playfulness. 

The new house is already a home to me where I see restrictions and limits lifted, and replaced with options, choices, and ease for my friends.  

Cozier spaces, beautiful architecture, and more opportunities. 

I am so happy for you guys 

• Love Cher 

Although one would argue that a door is just an entrance or an exit 
A door is many things 
It opens and closes like a book 
It symbolizes transitions and restrictions; movements and changes 
How you use a door can make memories 
When you open it for the first time, when it is slammed 
When it is opened with anticipation 
Or closed for the very last time 
A door gives security 
You can lock it 
You can close it when the winds and rain come 
You can hide behind it when a stranger approaches 

A door can give you excitement 
When you see your best friend holding it open 
Or children bursting through it happily 

It can give you uncertainty and fear 
When it is closed behind someone going for surgery 
You look at the door, not the walls 
When will they come through that door again? 
I’m so glad they came through that door again. 
A door can bring relief 
When you see someone you love come through it 
And stay 

The house with the purple door was good to so many 
It was a landmark  
A home 
A gourmet restaurant 
A place for healing and growing 
Rehabilitation 
New beginnings 
Some endings 
But always love. 

*

Cher

At the end of the day yesterday, the house was an absolute MESS. I think we all expect that after a move of that magnitude, but I’m sure people can also relate to the overwhelm that comes along with it. So while I was completely unbelievably grateful, I was exhausted just thinking about all that was still to do.

I won’t sugarcoat it. It felt very daunting. Not only do we need to put our things away where they go, but there is still work that needs doing before there is a place for all of our things. A big change is that our new place doesn’t have a pantry, and we really rely on ours. We buy everything in bulk, and have many large appliances that we use regularly. And now we have all these big things and nowhere to put them. We have some wardrobes that are doubling as a pantry for now, but they need more shelves before they’ll be truly effective, so there are many boxes and bins of food and products that are waiting for a home. Meanwhile, fridges are floating rogue throughout the area, as cabinets need to be changed before new appliances can be installed. Its a whole thing in that kitchen area. Whew! Just thinking about it ages me, lol!

If I can direct my eyes away from the nightmare that is the kitchen floor right now, I can vouch that things are starting to come together! 💜 Kids are settling into their rooms really nicely. Brady and I switched just about everything around in our room this evening to see if it flows better this way. I think it will. Bathrooms all found their toothbrushes and soap. I did laundry. Brady did dishes. We began combing through boxes and tubs in search of our daily things, and found much of what we were looking for. It was productive, for sure!

My current favorite area of the house is in our living room 💜

The living room is not without boxes on the floor and barstools floating as makeshift end tables, but it is also cozy with every chair and couch in its place, as well as a piano tucked perfectly, and a beautifully filled bookshelf. We are home, and this space highlights that to me.

Tomorrow, reality strikes, and the kids go back to school. A few of them anyway. Hopefully its another productive day, and that I can find my way even more so in our new home. I’d love to keep getting things making sense in the kitchen. There are linen closets to fill, also. A craft cabinet to stock. And let’s be real. There are also granola bars to make, and other food to prep. But I’m going to wait on that stuff. Time to work on what does exist here without making anything new, hahaha!

Ok. I’m WAY too tired for blogging. Tomorrow is another day. I’ll keep trying 😅

Guys. We did it. We moved. We’re here!

I’m going to have to tell you all about it another day, as today has been positively GIGANTIC and I am completely wiped out. As Brady described it, he and I both are running on fumes, and even those are starting to dissipate. But NOT in a bad way AT ALL. I will tell you all about it another time, so so soon 💜 For now, here is a before and after of the old house!!

Our previous house, while much emptier, is a total mess, hahaha! But it won’t be forever. There is still time to clean it, thank goodness. Though I may hire it out. I’m not entirely sure yet, and I’m not making any big decisions when I’m this tired 😅

There is still much to do, but that is future Hailey’s problem. Current Hailey needs to find her contact stuff and go to bed. Tomorrow will worry about itself 💜 Praise the Lord for AMAZING progress, and AMAZING people, and an AMAZING house that holds new beginnings for our family!!

Goodnight, all.

Stuff is getting very real over here.

It has been an absolutely crazy week! I’m not sure I’ve ever worked this physically hard in such a short span of time, but God remains good and He keeps me moving! I think I have a better balance than I did a few years ago of how hard to push, and how and when to take care of myself. When to shut it down for the night. When to ask for help. And I am SO fortunate to have such willing, loving people around me, eager to help us 💜 It also doesn’t hurt to see Brady a bit more these days, when he ducks out of work for a few hours here and there.

I am incredibly grateful to Zaks for being so understanding of life being about more than work. We all know how hard of a worker Brady is, so no one is being shortchanged when he loses an hour here or there. He ALWAYS makes up for it.

We are stretched thin over here but we are absolutely making it 💪 Glory strength!! We would not be coping with the strength of the Lord! My body would have long since worn out if not for God. ALL glory to Him!

Stay warm out there, guys!! 🥶

Its coming up, folks! Its definitely not over, but its coming.

Yesterday I was able to make a bunch of phone calls, lock down some dates and appointments, change some others, and confirm some plans for the next house. So far today has already been some of the same, locking down a schedule for the day. Laundry is going. Dekker is doing dishes. Food is in the slow cooker. A loving friend even offered to take the kids to school. So all the logistics are covered!! Thank you Lord!! There is obviously still much to do, but basic life things come first, of course!

Brady has things to pick up from work today. Thats his job. In every sense of the word, lol!

I have things to pack. That is my endless job, it seems. Is that legitimately ALL done before boxes start exiting the house? Because man. I’m running out of room to put boxes!!

As I type this, Dekker states “We’re short on everything right now. Dishes. Food. Time. The only thing we’re not short on right now is jobs.” And he’s right!! Though, to be clear, we’re short on food for a reason, haha! We’re trying to eat to the bottom of what we own so we have to move less, haha! And then shop a huge haul when we get to the next place. So NO ONE is starving by any means! Just some creative combos 😅

We are still hoping there is someone out there who would like a twin bed frame or three. They’re all different, and two have drawers underneath. Also our coffee bar that is a FABULOUS solid wood cabinet that has water damage on the top. Take them, guys!

Meanwhile we’re still on the hunt for some more of those clear plastic drawer units. They don’t have to be any specific way. Rowan just has LOTS of things, and as my boy who struggles most with change, he is struggling to part with any of his knickknacky things. And the kid needs a system, so I want him to have little drawers. I think it will truly help his sanity. I am happy to buy them also! Just wanted to feel it out first 🙂

Ok whew! Kids need to get out the door and I need to get into things! Gotta pack! And get a baby ready for a visit! Aaaaand I have to do a quick online sweep for a couple of items. A label maker. Some light fixtures maybe. And something else that just flew my mind because a kid spoke to me. Whew! We WILL get this all done! I am SURE of it!

We are right in the midst of the first truly winter weather around here! Some of ours are more willing to be out in it than others, hahaha! Laela ran an errand for me just yesterday, fully smiling on either end of the task.

When I say some are more willing, I do not mean myself. Cold is very very hard for me. But I still get through it without too terribly much complaining, haha! I just like to warm up good and proper afterward in my coziest spot.

I’m pretty late to bed these days, however, but I have other options that are not half bad! 💜

The countdown is on, and our nights here are numbered. Lucky for us, we still have one another, and all of the same people to love 💜 We are incredibly fortunate to move our beautiful life into some new walls in the not too distant future! Thank you, Lord!

I start this blog at 2:45pm. I just finished eating lunch, and I can see the school bus making its way down the gravel road surrounding town, heading to pick kids up from school. The end of the day is upon us already! The end of the school day, anyway. There is still much to do around here, but the day has been productive in its own way.

I spent time with some loved ones this morning.
I ate breakfast and drank coffee.
I texted three different social workers.
I drove to Saskatoon and picked up some meds.
I purchased and picked up a crib.
I filled up the van.
I stopped in on Brady.
I dropped off a few things upon getting back into town.
I fed babies and tucked them in for naps.
And just now, I ate lunch. Before the kids came home from school, even!

Meanwhile, Brady is being helpful even while at work, contacting people about our upcoming new mortgage, our insurance, some deliveries we need, and confirming with a contractor.

As I said, there is still much to do. But I can feel my body needing to sit for a minute. So I’m going to. Back into the work shortly. I’ll leave you with this beautiful pictures of a couple of my kids.

Aren’t they gorgeous?? Dekker is SO grown up these days. SO handsome!

I can’t wait to get these happy kidlets over into the next place 💜