Cher here.
God knows things before we do, that’s all I know for sure in this life. He accounts for our stupidity before he makes plans and knows the struggles we will face. He knows our flaws and fears. But he also knows our strengths.
I was really lost when I became Hailey’s friend by accident. I was looking to do something nice for someone, but also for a project to keep me busy. A new friendship was the last thing on my list as I struggled with almost every close friendship I had.
The more she put into me, the more I wondered why. Over time, we just became part of each other in a way. It was so gradual that the foundation was strong and unshakeable. There was room for forgiveness and patience. I guess you could say, since there was no agenda or race to be best friends, that our friendship grew and bloomed organically.
Today when I look at my best friend, I am so glad she picked me.
I am so glad she picked me because my life has improved so much since I met her. I put so much more into my circle, rather than friendships with no depth. I have learned the value of loyalty and what unconditional love in a friendship feels like. I stopped self sabotaging myself and started working harder on my goals. My relationship with Jesus is much closer than it’s ever been.
I always thought that I had to do everything alone or in a relationship. I didn’t know friendship could have this amount of depth and forgiveness.. I didn’t know someone like Hailey existed.
So, today while she is having a tough day and struggling with anxiety. I know she feels like she isn’t that person. She feels less than because she doesn’t have the same capacity as she did yesterday. But what she doesn’t always know is that it’s not her capacity that makes me happy she picked me. It’s not the movie nights, or the road trips, or the big gestures. It’s the space she has for me in her heart. A space I didn’t think I was worth to anyone, just a few years ago. And now, everyday I get to walk around knowing I have this incredible sister in my life that keeps me in check and loves me unconditionally.
I’m glad she picked me.