I’m sure almost all of you have seen these Carters sleepers before. You know the ones I mean. It seemed that every picture of kids I saw included at least one kid in this sleeper. Because it was festive, and not ugly, and very soft and cozy.
We bought the kids these luxurious sleepers this Christmas, as a fun gift that they could all wear and match. We also bought a little bitty one for them to open together. That was how we told them I was pregnant with another little sibling for them.
Now, we’ve obviously learned of the baby’s passing. Since learning this, Theo’s sleeper has been squished into our 0-6 month rubbermaid tub of kids clothing for whenever its useful to someone. The kids still have their sleepers around, but yesterday, for the first time since Christmas, we put them all in the same jammies, just for fun.
Funny how little things trigger bigger things. I LOVED seeing my beautiful four little soft kids all snuggled up together! And I KNOW that a baby born mid-summer would never have worn that sleeper anyway. But it still brought up all of the feels. YIKES! I wanted that baby. Oy. My heart hurts.
I wish you could all come snuggle these incredibly soft people today, because they are SO comforting and warm. I’m SO grateful to have four beautiful little loves here on earth, and while I will NEVER forget our Theo, I am hopeful that we will have the chance to have more kidlets wearing matching jammies in our future. Not today, and not tomorrow, but hopefully not too terribly far down the road.
Let’s wind this up. I don’t mean to whine. I’m just trying to be straight up about how I’m feeling. And I’m still feeling a lot of feelings. Lots of them are sad, but some are hopeful and peaceful. They’re getting better. But I’m still sad every day. I just want to be honest. But I am SO grateful to God for the kids I DO get to hug and kiss every day. Just look at them! They’re so wonderful…
So many feelings. Just from jammies.