Somehow, Winnie the Pooh makes a blustery day seem positive. Thats what I’m going for, anyway. The weather was cool and rainy and overcast all day. Believe it or not, we live far enough away from the city that our weather patterns are totally different. So we didn’t get a beautiful downpour so much as just clouds and a bit of spitting. It was kind of depressing weather but I felt ok. There were even highlights of the day!
A friend sold me a huge stash of diapers! I know, you’d think I have enough, but not only are cloth diapers super cute and addicting to purchase, but I will also have two kids in diapers for a little while at least, and will also hopefully have more children after this one (if she ever comes out!) so they will be used for years. While her diapers were all used on her son, there were a solid 12 or more than I will happily put on baby girl and about ten I’d currently use on Dekker, while the last handful or two will be put away in preparation for our next newborn boy, whenever he may come. So this afternoon, I took a drive to go meet her and pick them up. I left the boys at home and listened to really loud, guilty pleasure music in my car. Once we had made the transaction and had a nice long visit, I drove to my moms for a quick visit. As per usual, that turned into a really nice long visit which included some questions on caring for Dekker while we’re in the hospital, playing with the diapers, and a TALL glass of chocolate milk for me. Best. Visit. Ever. My drive home was nice and loud with music as well, and I enjoyed the rain as long as it lasted.
When I arrived home, Dekker was still sleeping so Brady and I went and walked around the garden. Its quite a bit behind everyone elses this year, it seems, but we are eager and keeping our eyes open every day for our corn to be ready. Its sooo close!
A random positive from today is that my reflux wasn’t as horrendous as its been in the past! Its not gone by any means, and the Zantac still isn’t cutting it. BUT!, the days that I’m up and around more are the days that food has an easier time travelling down. However, “up and around days” are much harder on my body and my bones. So its a toss up. But it was somewhat refreshing that I wasn’t plagued by horrible acid reflux while I was driving around on my own. Win!
Our evening was fun and playful, as it so often is. We had pizza for supper and then played toys downstairs for a good 1.5 hours. When he came to our room for cuddles and bedtime routine, we had the most fun we’ve had in a while. He recently has discovered our pillows and LOVES them! When he had them paid out the way he wanted, he said “Ni ni” and face planted into them. He rolled over but stayed laying on them, so I grabbed his blanket and put it over him. The Brady and I lay on either side of him and he just started talking and jabbering away, completely comfy. As I’ve said once or twice before, we don’t co-sleep or bed share in our house. Its a personal choice we’ve chosen not to practice. However, I very much understand why people do it. Closeness, and security, to mention two reasons. There was something so comforting having him right within my reach. And he was comfortable with my nose stuffed into his face and my hand over his tummy. He was sooo comfy!
It hit me in that moment that we have no idea if this will be our last evening, just the three of us! Heck, pregnant or not, we never know if we’ll all be together again. I don’t mean to get gruesome, but its reality. So we took some pictures 🙂
I know they’re not great quality but they’re all I need! Such a great memory. (There’s also a beautiful video of this cuddle time on my Facebook if you haven’t seen it.)
I’ve struggled these last few days with God saying “no” when I ask for things. Maybe if baby had been born earlier, we would have missed this evening cuddle time with Dekker. Im so glad God understands His timing even when I don’t. I flip flop between wanting to know everything and being completely relieved that its not my responsibility to know, or ever understand.
Tomorrow I will see my doctor. My last “in office” appointment before having my baby girl. With my building anxiety and growing belly, I’m curious to see what my amazing doctor will have to say. But as I seem to keep asking in every post, please oh please keep the prayers coming. We need them and appreciate every single one!