I am sooo ready for spring. Sooo ready!
Today actually should have been good. And it was, to an extent. Our evening plans fell through, so we didn’t have to have the kids ready and loaded in the car in order to meet a specific deadline. We didn’t have to venture out in the cold. We could just have a normal day at home. Brady did have to duck into the city for a couple of hours to touch base with a guy regarding a private job he’s picked up, but the kids slept almost the entire time he was gone. It was a good day.
But I think winter is finally starting to get to me. I’m low. Loooow. Not like I’m in horrendous pain over it, but I am emotional over everything, very sporadically throughout the day. I cry about Dekker’s upcoming surgery. I cry about Laelas delivery. I cry about this coming year, and the hope I have to reach certain goals within its months. There’s a lot going through my head. Always. Luckily, I’m doing better at sleeping these last couple of months so I rarely lay awake for hours upon hours with my mind ticking anymore. I don’t feel unhealthy, but I think I could do a few things to help myself get it together.
I totally flunked on the exercise this month, but tomorrow begins another! Maybe, with Brady home one and off, we’ll do some kind of challenge together? I think exercise of some kind would help anyway. Also, I’m neglecting myself vitamin D-wise, so I should get back in that groove. Dr. Mike told me the first time I saw him after Laela’s birth that fish oil is a really good option for mood and cognitive health. I bought a really expensive bottle of the stuff, mercury-free, and those things are enormous!
I gag on Avdil. So while I really trust Dr. Mike and want to do as he instructs, I have no idea how to take these things. I made the mistake of draining them out and just slugging back the oil. For the entire day, my mouth tasted like something I can’t describe but never want to taste again. It lurked there all day. I don’t know what to do! Tips? Anyone on enormous fish oil pills?
I feel like those few things would really help me feel better. That, and getting this surgery over with. I think that will help a lot. Once the procedure is done, we’ll have roughly two weeks of recovery, I believe. Thats most of February. Once thats over, we can move forward to bigger and better things 🙂 Exciting plan and goals and milestones for the kids. I cannot wait for that. But until then, I’ll take any tips or tricks you guys could possibly offer to feel better. I’m on the right track, right?? I sure hope so anyway…