Ha! Not cocky at all!!
Seriously though, I couldn’t verbalize it before, but I was just so anticipating school starting. And I was hesitant to say anything because I don’t want to come across as someone who doesn’t LOVE summers with her kids! I DO! I LOVE my little people. But I knew they needed school, and for some reason, I needed school! And I get it now.
Somehow, for whatever reason, now that school has started, I feel more capable. Not based on anything, really. This post might not make sense, but I hope it can make some sense.
I just feel like my goals are the same, but they feel more doable. Less scary.
I have a few little projects I’m working on, some on my own, and some with other people, that I’m really excited about. I’ve made toques and neckwarmers for 2/5 kids, which just days ago felt like not enough, and now feels like an accomplishment! I think I’m really going to buy a table at our local Christmas marketplace, though that one still makes me pretty nervous. I’m in a good swing of things with school lunches and think I could very easily prep for a whole week in advance. Just need a few more containers. I’m feeling great about Brady being back at work. The basement isn’t any more done than the last time I talked about it, but we had overnight guests earlier this week and (drumroll please) they lived!! So clearly we’re on the right track with that too 🙂 The gift exchange group on Facebook is up and at least a chunk of people have confirmed their role in it. (If you haven’t read and acknowledged the top statement in the group, please go do it soon so I don’t have to hound anyone individually!) I’ve ordered my first Christmas gifts for the season just days ago.
For some reason, rather than seeing whats left to do, I’m currently able to see what I’ve done. And that feels awesome.
Not everything has come together, but we’re on day three of the school year and I already feel lighter. Meanwhile, the weather feels darker and cooler, and I’m weirdly up for that, too! Just feels like a positive season right now. There is PLENTY of struggle that I haven’t spoken about publicly, so be reassured not everything is coming up roses, but I’m going to roll with it. I won’t try to explain it when I don’t understand it myself, but I’m thankful for the way the days are going right now. Thank you Lord for helping me see the good above the bad most days. I am SO fortunate.