^—–Laela is just a messy girl today. Thats all the title is in reference to, I promise.
Thanks everyone, for the lovely encouraging messages you sent me via Facebook. I felt relieved and loved and normal. I’m pleased to tell you all that today was so much better than yesterday! It was productive and full of lots of positives.
I did a load of dishes while Dekker ate breakfast. Lucky boy got corn pops, so he was very content to just sit and eat and talk with me. I would tease him and he would giggle and say “love” to me. He started answering “ya” just today, which has been wonderful already! He would say “Mom. Nose. Help. Please.” and sniffle until I brought a Kleenex over and wiped his nose. Poor sickie. But his communication is just incredible. After the dishwasher was started, I went to sit with him at the table for a few minutes, and I offered him a sip of my tea. I know, caffeine, sugar, all that stuff. But he had never had it before and I thought it would be a treat and sooth his throat a tiny bit. I offered him some and he immediately shook his head and said “Its hot!” True that. My smart boy.
I brought the kids downstairs after breakfast for toys and, lets be honest, some tv. I dragged down all the cloth diaper laundry as well. I’m pretty sad about our failure with cloth this last time. Laela doesn’t fit our diapers yet. Her legs are too skinny. I know smaller diapers exist, but I have lots of diapers and can’t justify going out to buy more than will last such a short time. So no cloth for Laela. And two days back in cloth for Dekker brought his yeast back. I’m very discouraged, but trying not to be. Disposables are nice and easy, and they really aren’t a problem for me. Its ok. I’m blessed to have any diapers for my kids in general.
I made a few phone calls while Dekker and Laela played. I booked Laela chiropractic for Wednesday, and left a message with public health about shots for Laela. I called to ask for a surgery date for Dekkers eyes and was given the regular response of “Nothing yet, we’ll notify you.” I expected that, to be honest. I’ve worked for surgeons in the past and I know how patients never get their procedures when doctors say they will. Life goes on. About fifteen minutes after that call, the surgical bookings woman called me back. She said that normally, Dr. Rubab write “3 months” on the surgical forms, and right now its taking about four months. For whatever reason, she wrote “January/February” on Dekker’s forms. Because of that, she has the authority to bump someone and put Dekker in their spot. I immediately felt guilty. But surprisingly, she was sooo happy to give me the date. She said that, without this, we would have waited until April, and she was thrilled to get us in earlier. She said “Consider it a new years present!” And I do! So, February 11th it is! She’s going to send us a big pack of info this week and we’ll get up to speed on what will happen. After that call, I called Dr. Guselle’s office to make an appointment for her to fill out a form on his behalf about a week before his procedure. There were no openings so I have a message left there for her. Things are in motion! I’m not feeling as excited or as peaceful as I had hoped, but I’m also not especially scared. Maybe a bit nervous. Mostly just anticipating the result. Eager, perhaps.
Another point of interest for Dekker is that his scare from yesterday is already looking up, so thats great! Thanks, everyone, for your prayers and concern for him last night. He doesn’t seem to be in any pain and I believe I’m seeing improvement. Good healing, little bud!
Once Deks went to bed, I made myself a ham sandwich out of the yummy ham I made last night, with some delicious pineapple honey mustard from Hickory Farms on top. Sooo delicious! I’m not big on lunch, but I could eat that every day. I even did another load of dishes. I hung the diapers and dried the rest. We only did cloth for two days, but had about thirty diapers and inserts, about 20 cloth wipes, and a few wet bags. SO much for such a short period of time!
Brady came home and we had a surprisingly yummy supper of leftovers, and then played toys with Dekker until 8:40, which is definitely past his bedtime. But he was up and happy and it was so nice to see him feeling a bit better. Now, he’s in bed, and Laela is WIDE awake, but we’ll likely put her down in about fifteen minutes regardless and see how it plays out.
I still have a different post I really want to write and ask for help on, but this one was necessary. You guys were all so loving yesterday, and I’m truly feeling much, much better today. Thanks, everyone!