The Daily Hailey

Does anyone out there actually think today is the end of the world? I do not. But let’s say it is, just for a minute.

I woke up with a really bad attitude. No particular reason, but even just looking through my Facebook feed, I scoffed at lots of thing people had written. More than usual. I am just feeling very copmlainy, and that is sooo not how I want my last day on earth spent. But seriously, for all we know, Jesus could come anytime, any day!

I guess I just feel the need to write it out so I remember it. Live each day like its your last. I’m not very good at that concept.

In spring, some friends of mine lost their baby when they were full term. While I cannot imagine what it felt like to be them, the news completely rocked me. I was crushed for my friends, and newly terrified for myself. I couldn’t imagine losing Dekker! How would I go on living? I was reminded that we never know when our last day will be, and should live accordingly.

Aaaaand I did it wrong. Dekker would sit and play, and I would sit beside him and bawl my eyes out. I was just imaging losing him, which is sooooo not what was supposed to happen! I did that for a few days, and then changed my tune. I was certainly not enjoying  the time I was spending with him, and I doubt he was either. Instead I decided to just have more gusto, and really get in there with him! I wanted to be able to know that if suddenly he was gone, I had done an awesome job of loving him when I had the chance. A little gruesome, I know, but it was something I needed to understand.

So again, I don’t believe today is the end of the world because the Mayan calendar ends. Whatever. Mayans or not, Jesus could come! I think it is important to be good stewards of what we are given. That includes our attitudes! We need to enjoy our time here as best as we can, and treat every situation the best possible way. If today is the end, I want to live it right. As a Christian first, then as a wife, then a mother, and everything else after that. C’mon! Don’t we all want to be the best we can be?!

I feel a little lighter already. Time to seize the day I suppose! May need some coffee to kick start things this morning, but as I hear Dekker jumping in his crib, its nice to know he’s amped and ready to play! Can always count on him for that!