While I even hesitate to be hesitantly optimistic, I’m thinking that this chapter of illness is over. As in this last bout. I have no idea if we’ll all get sick again tomorrow, but whatever this recent illness was has seemed to make itself scarce. Knock on wood. (knocks so hard on wood that it splinters) Its only been a handful of days without one of our morning “surprises,” but I’m thankful each morning for the lack of…..material? Without being too terribly gross, the last thing that was hanging onto my kids was some sick diapers. Really gross diapers. We haven’t had a sick one in a day or two, and the horrific diaper rash they’ve been leaving behind is starting to clear. Well, in Rowans case, that skin is just starting to peel off, but Laela is healing up and no one cries through diaper changes anymore. So. I’m hopeful. Hesitantly. Hesitantly hesitant.
With this chapter hopefully coming to a close, I keep looking back to our recent life, and how our plans have changed. How sad it is that our chapter on Theo has closed. I bought this beautiful little sleeper at Costco the other day for Solly. He is starting to fit into 18 month clothing, of all things, and I couldn’t fathom that my baby was already so big. Excitedly, I went to grab a 3 month one for our coming baby.
Except we don’t have a coming baby.
Ugh.
Yes, we will have another baby, or at least I hope and pray we will! But its going to be a while, and in that time, I’m sure there will be lots of cute sleepers that I shouldn’t buy but will anyway. So this particular grey and white striped soft one will just be in 18 month size for us. And thats ok. I’ve had a cry, and I’ll probably have another one. And thats ok too.
So many things have happened already this year, and I was SO anticipating an amazing kick off to 2017. Its definitely not begun how I had hoped, but I am so thankful for my life and family. There will still be blessing this year, I have no doubt. There have already been blessings! We are blessed every day that we wake up! God has been good. But my flesh sure fails sometimes.