I cannot do extra. Plain and simple. Very little “extra” is within my grasp right now. These are trying times, and I’m working hard to stay afloat.
Months ago, I spoke to an OB about our fertility issues, and she wanted to set me up with a procedure to check my uterus and tubes out. It took months to book, but suddenly, it was on my calendar for this week. Of all things, of all times, fertility is pretty far down our list of priorities, so I called and tried to reschedule it. I said I was fine to book it way down the line. Months. Whatever. But they told me there is only one doctor in the province who does this exact procedure, and he was about to go on sabbatical. So if I wanted to reschedule, I would actually just cancel, and see what happened. And I did not want that. So I kept the appointment and accepted the reality of having to push through “extra.” And that was today.
I won’t go into crazy detail, but it was an uncomfortable appointment. I was very well cared for an encouraged by the three medical staff members in the room with me. Everything was explained along the way, and I was reassured at every step. It did turn out to be worthwhile, though, and follow up will be done! Nothing is blocked, nothing is growing, nothing scary. Information was gained, and I’m so grateful. The doctor performing the test told me he was happy I came in and we got some answers, and told me I had done really well. I apologized for flinching and struggling a little, and the room reassured me that I had been totally cooperative and everything was clear and uncomplicated. They were really loving. I felt safe.
That appointment happened when I usually am visiting Brady at the hospital. Instead of being able to go to him directly afterwards, he then had an appointment at 1:30. So today’s visit will be at an entirely different time than usual, but I still get to see him, and thats what counts!
Thank you, mom, for driving me.
Thank you, friend, for keeping Solly for lunch.
Thank you, Lord, for bringing the snow yesterday, not today, and making my appointment possible.
And for the beginnings of answers.