Today did not go as planned. Does it ever, really? Not so much. But this morning was crazy.
I woke up this morning wildly dizzy. Every time I would shift my head, even just a little, the room would spin. I historically have low blood pressure, so dizzy spells are not uncommon for me. This morning, I just closed my eyes and waited for it to be over. It took over two minutes for me to get my bearings back. I woke Brady and told him what was happening. He didn’t really know what to do with me, and frankly neither did I. So I made my common mistake and called the health line.
I should say, there are some lovely nurses that take calls! Some of them are super helpful and compassionate and I feel good when we hang up. And then you get the ones like the one I had. She went straight to me most likely having fluid or sediment in my ears that is most likely having an effect on my balance and I need to go to the doctor right away so they can do an MRI on my head. Um…seriously?! Instead, I chose to lay still until my head stopped spinning. Unfortunately, I had to pee. It took me several minutes to even get into a sitting position on the side of the bed. When I could finally open my eyes a bit, Brady got me up and limped me over to our bathroom. By the time I got there, everything was spinning so bad I thought I might throw up. Being beautiful like always, Brady waited while I did what I needed to do, and then carried me back to bed, where I stayed until after noon. Even after that my head felt funny, but I could get by. It was wild. I have no idea what happened, but we’re going to the city tomorrow and if I still feel like crap, I think we’ll hit up a walk in and see what a doctor says.
Because of the way I woke up, today was suuuper lazy. I lay in bed while Dekker and Brady ate breakfast and while Dekker played toys in the living room. I missed the whole morning with them, and Dekker went for a nap. I barely saw them in the afternoon either. It was kind of a nutty day. When it was time for Dekker to go down for night, he was playing toys and had fallen down and was wailing. And not really pain wailing, but more like the fall had just pushed him over the edge and he was tired. But WOW did he fight it! He started really throwing a tantrum and throwing toys and flailing. So I picked him up to bring him to his room and he slapped my face. Yes, he was very worked up and was freaking out a bit, but that is something we have zero tolerance for in our house. We really push respect in our house, and obviously hitting isn’t respecting another person. Plus, Dekker is very strong and he can really hurt someone. So in amongst him being so sad and tired and after barely seeing him all day, I had to reprimand him. It felt awful. I left to get his milk ready. Brady brought him over and fed him his milk next to me. When it came time for our cuddles, there was no hesitation. He came right over and cuddled his head into my neck. I felt so warm and loved.
I started to tell him how much I loved him and how I was sorry that the evening played out the way it did, even though he did need to listen to me, and blah blah blah. All of a sudden he perked right up, putting his face directly into my face, and he started giggling and shaking his head. So I shook my head back at him and he flopped over laughing. So began a solid five minutes of head and body shaking and ridiculous laughter. I am so touched by these moments with him. He really missed playing with me today! And he showed it in the best way 🙂 Who cares if my bedtime cuddles aren’t cuddly?! They’re perfect any way I can get them!
Gotta love the funny boy.