On my very best friends lost her mother today. I believe I can safely say that this was the wildest week and half that she or anyone in her family has ever experienced. I can barely fathom being on her end of the situation, and my heart is so broken for them.
Having not asked the family for permission, I don’t plan to go into big details. But instead, I’d like to concentrate on the up-side.
Pam is FREE! She is no longer weak, or unable to communicate. Her mind is clear and she is comfortable. She is no longer in a hospital bed with machines beeping, being tested and tested and tested.
I have not been a mother for very long at all, but from what I do know, I firmly believe that the entire time she has been in hospital, she has been silently praying for her family. How could a mother not?! She would have been praying for peace, and strength for her kids and husband. For future spouses and children. For wisdom in plans of jobs and schools and where to live and what to pursue. More than likely, she was thinking of herself last.
I cannot imagine losing my mom at this stage of my life. Or ever. But especially now. I’m only 24! So is my friend. Her mom didn’t make it to 50.
This all feels so unfair to me, and I’m sure many others feel the same. I am confident in my faith in God, and I know He has my friend and her family in the palm of His hand. That is supposed to be so comforting and if I’m honest, it so often isn’t for me. Sometimes it just makes me angrier. But in this case, from a different province, I feel like this family was prayed over by many people, supported by their church and their loved ones, and blessed by God. Everything was done exactly how it should have been done!
I had such a strong, unshakeable faith that she would survive and be healed miraculously. As in, I really believed it! I didn’t have to force it. I was confident! And she didn’t survive. Yet somehow I don’t feel betrayed. I’m not going to look too closely into that. I choose to be thankful that I’m not angry at God for taking the mama of my dear friend, and that I can still praise Him through all of this.
Blessed be the name of the Lord, who gives and takes away.
I know this comes late Hailey but I just want to bless you as you seek the face of God even in time of distress. God is faithfuleven if it doesn’t feel like it at the time. I’m soon 54 and because of my years I’ve seen excellent and Godly come out of years
of struggle. God is true and His promises never fail. Let’s keep abiding in His love….. it’as filled with the Glory of God! I love you Sweetheart and am praying for you and your friends.