The Daily Hailey

I slept like a rock last night, minus one random “bathroom adventure” around 5am. But when we both woke up, we were rested and felt good. Both of us. We had croissants this morning, plus I had some chicken broth. I’m definitely still scared of food today, and my body can tell. Its scared too, I think. Any tummy gurgle makes me nervous. But honestly, I survived the day with very little stomach upset and no contractions. A few braxton hicks, but thats nothing new. I probably felt better today than I’ve felt in quite a while, except for my pelvis. That thing pops in and out like its not even attached to someone! It hurts and what makes it worse probably is that its LOUD! Every grinding sound makes me feel sick to my stomach. Gross. I don’t want to think about it.

So as I said, for breakfast, I had some croissants and soup. I got my pills down no problem, and the iron hasn’t upset my tummy at all. My lunch was also soup – leftover tomato soup and crackers. I drank pineapple juice with a bit of Sprite in it, which was SUPER delicious! And for supper, we had mashed potatoes with cheese, and chicken strips. So no, nothing overly healthy but I ate, which is good. And I ate safe-zone, soothing things. And I drank tons!

My mixed emotions come into play around the way I physically feel. I was sooo not mentally ready to delivery a baby yesterday, but feeling so awful, I had worked all day to get to that place in my mind. I had talked to my sisters and my mom on the phone, a few people over texting, and even a few people were Facebook messaging me encouragements. Yet, what was up with me yesterday?? Stomach flu?! It doesn’t seem fair. However!!!…I feel so much better today. I knew that if I went into labor today, I would be in much better condition to push her out, and at peace with the concept of labor, and the pain that comes with it. I’ve said many times that I loved labouring with Dekker. I’m sure lots of you are thinking “Sure you did, just ask Brady” or “Women don’t remember labour the way it was, they just remember having their baby in their arms.” I suppose a bunch of that is true, but the anticipation was positive in my mind while I laboured. I wasn’t furious or confused or out of control. I was just going through the motions as calmly as possible so Dekker would with us as soon as possible. I WANT those same feelings and yesterday, I wouldn’t have had them. Of course I would have anticipated baby girls birth, but I think I would have feel more anxiety tied to the lack of control that I really have in a labour and delivery situation. I would have been quicker to panic. So I’m THRILLED that I’m in a better frame of mind today, but I suppose I’m a little embarrassed that I was so wrong. I’m also bummed that it WASN’T yesterday because I worked sooo hard to be ok with that! And now, its the next day and I haven’t had one sign of labour. Sigh. Lots going on in my head.

But!!… positivity! Since I was feeling better today, we got a bit more done around the house. We rearranged our bedroom to declutter one area so baby stuff fit better. We moved the recliner from the kids room into our room and cleaned the floors. Brady mowed the lawn while I dozed a bit in the afternoon. Dekker is on the verge of a cold and isn’t always the friendliest of company, so he actually ended up sleeping most of the afternoon away. It was quiet but productive. Another positive about not having baby girl today is that my plan for a girls night out tomorrow night is still on! Hailey and I are going to shop a little, then have dinner, and who knows what else. No real plans as of yet, but it’ll be nice to get out and be with one of my girlfriends for an evening before I’m holed up at home for a little while anyway. Baby can come whenever she pleases, but I’m not suspecting her right away here anymore. It would appear I told you all about my pooping episodes just for kicks yesterday. *shrugs* Sorry everyone! Everybody poops!

Now for nighttime. Dekkers asleep, diapers are in the washer, the bath will be run as soon as laundry is over, and I’m thinking a freezie would be a super delicious snack! I’ve been raving about onion rings all day, but I’m still a little scared of food. So I think a freezie would be a bit safer than deep-fried onions. Both delicious options.

Sleep well, everyone!