Today was a hard day for me. I’m struggling pretty hard with Dekker and the fact that he too is struggling. He is very overwhelmed by the crowd of us, and it breaks my heart that he can’t enjoy it the way I wish he would. He gets so worked up so fast, and he has been acting out like crazy. Waaay more than at home! When we pull him into a side room to have a talk with him, he seems relieved. I’m seeing that he needs quiet time, but it breaks my heart. I want him to love my family as much as I do! And while I’m confident he loves each and every member, he thrives on a one on one basis.
The majority of the family went to go check out a nearby attraction so I stayed back with Dekker, and my brother and sister in law, and their boys who were going to nap. For a while we were in separate condos so I was just with Dekker. At one point he asked to come up, so I pulled him on my lap and he rested his head on my shoulder. These cuddles are few and far between so I just rubbed his back and tried not to disrupt him. A moment later he dropped his toy. I asked him if I should get it back for him and he didn’t even move. I grabbed my phone and turned on the camera to face me and was met with my squishy-faced boy, fast asleep. I think its been roughly 1.5 years since Dekker fell asleep on me. I have some great pictures but they’re not on my laptop yet. I’ll do a photo post when we get home. Anyway, Dekker slept on me for about 45 minutes, then randomly perked up and was good to go! He did great for the rest of the day. Brady took him for a chunk in the evening on his own while I sat by the pool and with my feet in the hottub with my siblings, and just had a break. It was sooo nice! Brady and Dekker came for a visit, and went for a walk together on the boardwalk. He seemed to do awesome having some quiet time again.
He was more than wiped out by 8pm, however, so he went to bed and while I type, he still hasn’t made a sound, 3.5 hours later. It was a solid day, and its now time for a solid couple of episodes of My Name is Earl, and then sleeping! Hopefully my sunburn from yesterday hurts less tomorrow! My feet are killing me, they’re so tight! And who knew underwear could hurt so bad!