We had a pretty rough night last night, so naturally, I woke up feeling tired and a bit anxious for the day. To top it off, my last stretch of sleep had included some really really unsettling dreams. It was a difficult start to the day. As the morning wore on, it didn’t improve too much, and I was a bit of a wreck. My loving husband, who was also struggling with fatigue at work, took his coffee break back at the house with me. His presence (and his coffee) helped me so very much. He let me cry and mope and just struggle, and he sat patiently and listened and tried to problem solve with me. Brady, my love, you helped me survive my day. Thank you for all you do.
As it turned out, his “coffee break” was pretty late in the day, and he decided with me that it was a good day to nap everyone at once. I used to do this every single day, but Dekker stopped napping around his fourth birthday, so I don’t get that break in the day, and thats fine. But today was a day that I needed a reprieve. So we put all of the kids down. Dekker was crying and crying, and I did everything I could to reassure him that he was not going down because he was in trouble. No attitude problem, no disobeying, nothing like that. But I needed some rest time, and I thought everyone should have some too. He accepted it tearfully, and went down.
That rest felt SO refreshing for me, and I was in considerably better shape when I got the kids up. They felt good, and I felt better, and while Brady was still at work for an hour or so at that point, I knew we were in good shape.
Brady came home with the best idea. Family movie night. We’ve watched very little tv since moving in here, and I like that. Not because I think watching tv is bad (I really don’t, let’s not get into it 😉 ) but because I like that the kids haven’t missed it much. Also, I love the idea of tv watching to be intentional. Not a go-to, but occasionally going downstairs to watch tv together as a family, just to relax. We have a nice media setup here, and it was definitely time to use it. Brady also came home with a KFC chicken bucket, which I have been craving SO MUCH! The kids don’t care for the chicken there, so we made them grilled cheese sandwiches, and Brady and I ate an entire ten piece chicken bucket. Don’t judge. It was delicious.
Post-chicken bucket, we brought the kids downstairs and turned on the movie “Home.” We’ve been wanting to watch it for so long, but we’ve been mildly busy the last little while, and I’m so glad, because today was the PERFECT day for it! The kids were so entertained and interested. Laela danced around to the music, and Dekker basically didn’t move the entire time. Brady and I laughed our faces off, and in turn, Rowan would laugh, as if to fit in with us. It was hilarious and endearing and we had SUCH a good time!
Now the kids are down, and I think Brady and I are going to go take a dip in the hot tub, which we also haven’t used until today, for some reason! It just feels like the right day to get really acquainted here, and to make it be our home for the next while.
I’m so thankful for this roof over our heads, for God who gave it to us, and my husband who holds me when I’m crumbling. Brady and I have a really lovely balance, where it always seems like one of us is strong when the other is on the edge of losing it. We tend to take turns unintentionally in these rolls. Today, he was the rockstar. Thank you, my dear. I couldn’t have done today without you. See you in the hot tub! <3