I woke up at 5:00am to Laela rolling into the bars of her crib. It happens once in a while, and never phases her that much. However, the only wall that she has access to now is the one that we share, so I heard it LOUDLY. Being jarred awake, I didn’t drift right back out. I lay in bed, listening, and I heard her sort of whining a little bit. Nothing huge, but it carried on consistently. I finally went to go check on her, and she had sat up, and was now folded in half, bawling into her blanket. Poor dear! I rocked her a little and tucked her back in all soft and cozy. But it took a couple of tries before she was convinced and fell back to sleep. Since I was up a handful of times in a short period of time, I was officially up for the day. But because of how yesterday was, I had really determined to make today better. So I sat up, played some computer stuff, and had tea. I got to actually talk to Brady before he left for work, and I felt weirdly refreshed and positive 🙂 Best day ever!
Breakfast was smooth, and the kids have been adorable all day. We’ve had some lumps and bumps here and there but are definitely doing way better than yesterday. Dekker is using his manners and Laela is communicating so well! This morning was sooo easy to keep a good attitude. Both kids even went down for their naps well!
But then I had to walk upstairs about a half hour after they fell asleep. Yes, they BOTH fell asleep almost right away! They’re not super light sleepers, but Laela woke up. That was about 45 minutes ago, and she is WAILING! No, I haven’t totally neglected her. I’ve gone upstairs to cuddle her, I gave her milk, I changed her diaper, and she will not be satisfied. She’s laying her exact same spot, looking wiped out, but crying and crying. The last time I went in there, Dekker woke up. Oh, and I smashed my head on megabed. I’m finding it very, very difficult to keep my attitude where I want it. VERY. After such an early start, whether I’m handling it well or not, my body is feeling fatigued and I need rest. Today of all days is a day where I need my kids to nap, because I need to rest. But nope.
So I can’t pull out all of the gift wrapping stuff as planned, because I’m about to give up on their naps right away here and I’d put it all away at that point. Instead, I’m sitting in a recliner, blogging, hoping desperately that Laela will be asleep by the end of this post, but its not looking good.
Any uplifting thoughts or prayers for our evening would be much appreciated! Today is definitely the day for Brady to bring supper home. Noodle bowl, please!! Wish us luck!