God is so good! I posted last night about feeling nervous about being alone with both of my kids. I am THRILLED to tell you guys that today was a really great day! it started with a really crummy night, unfortunately, which just had me in a worse mood going into the day. The rough night wasn’t based on my kids waking or anything. Laela woke once at 2:30 and once at 6:00, and then she slept again until after 9:00. When I finally woke to her, I just heard Dekker stirring a bit. It was so nice! I could get her a bottle and feed her in bed all comfy cozy before getting Dekker up for breakfast. It was comfortable and relaxed.
During my morning, I got a very encouraging Facebook message from a friend, telling me my nerves are completely normal. She told me about a few basic things that had helped her, like making a point to eat and drink, get some fresh air, keep the goals for the day small and simple, and PRAY constantly. She was right, and while logic tells us these things, sometimes its nice to get that kick of encouragement from a concerned friend. So I took her advice.
I wore real clothes today. No sweats and sports bra. I felt ten times better with just that! I unpacked the dishwasher and washed bottles while Dekker had his cereal, and then I sat and had some cereal myself while he had a peach, and we read books. Laela slept in the MamaRoo. It was quiet. It seemed like God gave me a break, and nine times out of ten, Laela would sleep while Dekker needed me.
After breakfast, we all went to play downstairs. Laela played in (*stared at the wall from) her vibraty chair, Dekker played cars, and I pulled apart the diaper cake we received the other day. I didn’t count, but I am confident the gift was made up of over a hundred diapers, all rolled up and individually wrapped with tiny elastic bands. I figured unrolling and flattening diapers was an easy and mindless job, but one that needed doing. So I put on Glee reruns and accomplished something. Yay! Dishes and diaper cake accomplished! Dekker came over once in a while to check out what I was doing. I would tell him I was “fixing” Laela’s diapers. Dekker would then go over to Laela and hesitantly point to where her diaper would be. Good job, bud! He is getting nice and comfortable with her, and did a lot of sharing with her today. He’d bring a cup and spoon to her chair, stir, and offer her a taste. It was adorable. So proud of him!
When it was time for a nap, my boy did not cry. He wasn’t particularly impressed with the idea but he took it like a big boy and just accepted it. I had left Laela in her MamaRoo while I put him down, and when I returned to her, she was asleep. Win! I quickly took this opportunity to make myself some lunch. I warmed up some soup and poured a tall glass of milk. I then snuck over to my room to eat in my ideal comfy spot – my bed. Almost the second I finished my lunch, I heard Laela wake. Thank you God, for those ten minutes of silence. And thank you also for my meltdown-free morning. I really don’t know how it could have gone smoother.
However, the reality is that Laela did wake up so soon after I ate. But lucky for me, she had just eaten recently and all she was needing was cuddles, which I will happily provide. I lay her on my chest and pulled my blankets over her and I. And she was out.
Brady texted early afternoon to say that he had finished up his house early and was on his way home! He found us laying in that exact position when he arrived. But lucky us, he arrived with surprises! He had grocery shopped our list that had been building for a few weeks now! With that, he had bought Dekker more patches, a pumpkin spice latte for me, and he picked up the mail. In the mail was Laela’s health card, which I am completely thrilled about. I know it seems silly, but it makes it all feel so exciting and real to me. Laela is officially alive and she lives here with us! I LOVE THAT! Also in the mail came a nice cheque from Daytona. I’m sure some people will think its bad taste to talk about money on here, and that may be so, but the point is that we received a lovely payout that will last us a couple of months, so the time that Brady took off around Laela’s birth won’t set us back at all. No big ugly time of being broke in our near future like we were expecting.
It really, truly has been a lovely day. Its interesting how I go into some days expecting everything to go smoothly, and have everything crash and burn around me. I also know that going into a day with a cruddy attitude (like this morning) can ruin a day before it even begins. But once in a while, I feel crummy leading up to my day, and it turns out amazing. Like today. God is completely amazing, and clearly, He is also very compassionate.
Dekker is in bed, Laela just ate a HUGE feed, and my bath is run and ready. I’m looking forward to catching up on this season of Big Bang Theory with Brady and (hopefully) sleeping better than last night. I hope you all sleep well too!